Is It Happy or Unhappy Mothers Day For You Today?

It’s my first Mother’s Day without my mother. She died September 13, 2013. So this post is for all those readers who:

Have lost their mothers, never knew their mothers, fought with them, ran away from them, were embarrassed by them, or were hurt by them.

This post is for the broken mothers, the ones sitting in jail, the ones who are too sick to hug their kids, the ones who hit and yell and scream at their kids because they don’t know any better, and then are ashamed when Mother’s Day rolls around and wish they could do it differently.

This post honors all mothers, no matter where they are, or what they’ve done.

It’s a depressing holiday, come to think about it, because there’s so much pressure on children to find a way to thank their mothers, and so much pressure on mothers to be perfect in their children’s eyes.

So here’s to sloppy, ambivalent, trying, intense, imperfect love between mothers and their children. Here is to learning how to mother ourselves. Here is to finding some kind of way to fill the void. And transforming our loss into…what? Strength. Perseverance. Poetry.

Here’s to recognizing authentic, honest mothers who are only human, after all. Which means that they’re here on earth for a while, and then they’re gone.

If you have lost your mother, I hope today is a day you feel her presence, and not just her absence. I hope her memory gives you some kind of strength. I hope she’ll always be, as my mother used to tell my kids, that little bird flying over your shoulder. Flapping away before you even know it, waving its wing, good-bye.

My mother, Gladys Katcher Bletter, holding me.

My mother, Gladys Katcher Bletter, holding me.

Here are some fabulous New Yorker covers for Mother’s Day. And, a moving, beautiful piece, “The Unmothered,” by Ruth Margalit here.

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2 Responses to Is It Happy or Unhappy Mothers Day For You Today?

  1. Beautiful post, Diana. The lines “…I hope today is a day you feel her presence, and not just her absence…” touched me deeply, even though my mother is still alive. Dementia makes her “absent,” but I’m grateful my memories are still vivid and strong and real.

    • dianabletter says:

      Hi Marylin, that is true for you as well, isn’t it? Dementia robs your mother of all that she was. But at least you have her writing and your wonderful gift of re-telling her stories.

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